everything is energy
thoughts, emotions, and vibrations shape how your body heals
what is energetic environment?
the energetic environment refers to the mental and emotional influences that shape how we experience the world around us
this is the environment nobody talks about and arguably the most powerful one of the three...
›every thought you think
›every emotion you suppress
›every feeling you numb with food, wine, or scrolling
›every time you say "i'm fine" when you're not
›every dream you quietly talked yourself out of
every single one of these emotions produces a chemical response in the body → real hormones, real inflammation, real immune suppression
over time, those responses shape your overall energetic signature… your frequency, your vibe, the invisible thing people feel when they're around you
and that frequency sets the tone for your reality…
here's what nobody tells you though: every single person is carrying something heavy.
every.single.person.
even the ones who appear to have it all together, the ones who seem unbothered, the ones you quietly envy… all of them have been through the trenches in some form
the difference isn't what happened to you. it's how you respond to it
do you use your trauma as fuel to continue growing and learning? or do you let your trauma consume your entire existence?
the truth is: you can eat perfectly, avoid every toxin on this site, take every supplement on earth, and still feel like garbage if your nervous system is stuck in survival mode
your body doesn't know the difference between a tiger chasing you and the anxiety of a toxic relationship…
it responds to both with the same cortisol surge, the same shutdown of non-essential systems, and the same slow erosion of your ability to heal
⇒it is imperative that you learn to process your emotions. not eventually. now.
›grief unexpressed becomes depression.
›anger unexpressed becomes resentment.
›fear unexpressed becomes anxiety that lives in your body without ever fully explaining itself…
find a release that works for you → move your body, scream in your car, cry without a reason, journal, create, talk to someone. whatever it takes, just don't let it sit there.
your body is keeping score.
1. your thoughts
›constant rumination
›always assuming the worst
›all or nothing thinking
›scarcity mindset
›comparision to others
›self critical
›self conscious
›discounting the positive
›victim mentality
›"i am not enough"
2. trauma response
›poor response to triggers
›ignoring your emotions
›projection onto others
›denial
›lack of accountability
›people pleasing
›dissociation through vices
›self sabotage
›hypervigilance
›refusal to change
3. finding joy
›prioritizing your wants/needs
›nurture your inner child
›spend time in nature
›connect with others
›learn a new hobby
›laugh without needing a reason
›rest without guilt
›say yes to things that scare you
›romanticize your ordinary life
›when in doubt, dance it out
everything is energy
energy cannot be created or destroyed, only transformed.
in one sense, what that means is emotions don’t just disappear… anger that isn't processed doesn't vanish, it just changes form...
think about when you’re angry or overwhelmed…that surge of emotion isn’t just in your mind…it’s a force moving through your body, trying to escape. that’s why, in moments of rage, you might feel the urge to yell, punch, or move…because energy demands to go somewhere
and if you don't consciously direct the energy in a healthy way, it finds its own way out…it comes out sideways at a stranger in traffic, at your kids over something small, at yourself at 2am when you can't sleep…
the person who snaps at the cashier isn't actually angry at the cashier. the person who picks a fight over dishes isn't angry about the dishes. it is all just unprocessed anger and emotions taken out on the wrong people
you've felt it. you've been on both ends of it. someone else's unprocessed pain landing on you out of nowhere…and you’re standing there confused like “what the hell did i do?”
this is why emotional suppression doesn't work long term (and contributes to autoimmune diseases). you cannot destroy and burry what you feel
so what can we do about it?
you must go deeper than the surface emotion
notice your reactions → question the reactions → trace it back to the root → determine if you need to change it, accept it, or heal it
1. awareness to your emotions and reactions... start noticing when you get worked up, when something makes you anxious, when something makes you sad, when something makes you smile…notice all the emotions and keep a mental tally, even write it down
→traffic makes me angry, tardiness irritates me, saying no gives me anxiety, reminiscing makes me sad
2.question the emotion and reaction... start asking yourself why?
→why do i lose it every time someone cuts me off in traffic?
→why do i tense up every time someone is late?
→why do i feel physically uncomfortable saying no?
3.change it, accept it, or heal it... the correct answer will be different for every situation and person. some things have room for change while others are out of your control
and healing requires you to begin tracing emotions back to their roots and asking the harder questions…when did i first feel this way? what actually happened that made me this way? and in many cases it all traces back to childhood…presence, absence, or just from wounded ‘adults’ raising children and not realizing the trauma they were inflicting and how it would shape you and follow you into adulthood...
and again, if you’re too scared to sit alone with your own emotions… the universe will keep putting you in the same situation over and over and over until you decide to deal with it and heal it
below are three examples of how each part might go...
→why do i lose it every time someone cuts me off in traffic?
is it actually about the traffic or is it more about feeling disrespected and invisible?
change it: if you're late every morning because you leave the house at the same time every day despite knowing it takes longer than you think…that's something you can change. leave earlier. problem solved. no spiritual journey required.
accept it: if you leave work at 5pm in a major city and there is always, without exception, traffic…that's not a problem. that's just tuesday (or any day or time on the van wyck). and the energy you're spending being furious about something completely outside your control is energy you're stealing from yourself
heal it: it's never actually about the car. trace it back. somewhere early, you learned what it felt like to be disrespected and have no recourse. to be invisible and have no voice. to watch someone break the rules while you followed them, and have no one acknowledge that it wasn't fair…maybe it was a sibling who got away with everything. a parent who dismissed you. a classroom where you were overlooked. a home where your feelings were inconvenient…
go back and give that younger version of yourself the acknowledgment they never got... that it wasn't fair, that you did matter, that being seen was never too much to ask for…otherwise, the next person who cuts you off will send you right back there. every single time.
so you have choices: you can sit in that car white-knuckling the steering wheel, cortisol spiking, replaying the same frustration you had yesterday and will have again tomorrow…or you can make it the best 45 minutes of your day. listen to a book you've been meaning to read. make a playlist of all your favorite songs. call someone you miss and never have time to talk to anymore…
same traffic with a different perspective. completely different experiences. completely different chemical reactions happening in your body.
→why do i tense up every time someone is late?
is it actually about the time? or is it about feeling like your time and your existence doesn't matter enough to be prioritized?
change it: if it’s a pattern, talk to the person in a kind way. ‘hey, i love hanging out with you but it makes me feel anxious and less important when you are late’
i have a friend who is the kindest human towards me, but that bitch is always late. i have accepted that, she has accepted that…and we both agreed i should always tell her to meet an hour before the scheduled event
accept it: not everyone is thinking about you. most people are in their own world, just like you are. not everything is a personal attack. sometimes the person is just having a dayyy and could use a little grace. and in work environments there is nothing you can do, go eat breakfast and wait
heal it: it's not about the time. trace it back. somewhere early, you learned what it felt like to wait for someone who didn't show up. not just physically but also emotionally. a parent who was present in the room but somewhere else entirely. someone who promised and didn't follow through. someone whose actions told you repeatedly that other things were more important than you. you learned that waiting meant uncertainty. and uncertainty meant you might not matter enough
so now someone is seven minutes late to lunch and your nervous system is back in that living room, waiting and wondering if you're worth showing up for… meanwhile the person stuck in traffic has no idea they just activated a wound that's been there for decades…
go back and tell the younger version of yourself that you were worth showing up for, you always were, the failure was never yours… otherwise punctuality will always feel like a referendum on your worth
→why do i feel physically uncomfortable saying no?
why does someone else's disappointment feel like a personal failure? why am i tying my self worth to the opinions of others?
change it: mostly recognizing that you are allowed to say no. to literally anything you don’t want to do. it’s your life. going out with someone just to appease them is not helping anyone. and it’s perfectly fine to say no with honesty instead of some lame, made up excuse. "i love you, but i don’t want to go out because i’m tired and it was a long week and relaxing for me involves my couch"
we all work, we are all tired, we all have things to do, life is crazy…so if someone is constantly giving you a hard time about saying no to things, maybe it’s time to re-evaluate the friendship
accept it: when you prioritize your own needs and wants, you will inevitably make people ‘upset’ or ‘disappointed’ with you… but that’s on them. it’s not your job to keep up with the version of you that they created in their mind. not everyone is going to agree with your decisions. as long as you’re making them with pure intentions to protect your peace, it’s ok if some people don’t get it
heal it: it's not about the request. trace it back. somewhere early, you learned that keeping people comfortable was your job. that love was conditional on your compliance. that someone's disappointment in you was a threat to the relationship, to the peace in the room, and to your place in it...maybe you grew up in a home where conflict meant danger. where a parent's mood determined the emotional weather for everyone. where being agreeable was the only way to stay safe. where your needs were an inconvenience and someone made sure you knew it...
so now a coworker asks you to cover their shift and your heart rate climbs. a friend wants something you don't have the energy to give and you say yes anyway at your own expense. you apologize before you even finish the sentence… but you are not in that house anymore. the people in your life now are not that parent. and your 'no' is not a threat to anyone's safety, including your own.
go back and tell that younger version of yourself that your needs were never too much, your comfort always mattered, and you were allowed to take up space… otherwise, someone else's disappointment will always feel like your emergency to fix
how does one 'talk' to their younger self?
it doesn't require anything special. no therapist, no formal protocol, no ceremony. just you, silence, and a willingness to go there.
meditation is the most effective container for this because it quiets the noise enough to actually feel something. but the same thing can happen in any moment of genuine stillness, alone, with no external stimulus.
while i fully support the science behind meditation, ‘traditional meditation’ doesn't do it for me. i sit quietly and try not to think and then i think about not thinking and it all kind of spirals from there…
but the great thing is there are no rules to any of this. take the general concept of stillness and being left alone with your own thoughts and find a meditation-like method that works for you.
my favorites: breathwork, grounding, chi gong, and long walks.
one of the most underrated ones is a long walk alone with no headphones, no podcast, no music. there is something about the rhythm of walking, the repetitive motion, the forward movement, the absence of screens, that naturally brings things to the surface. thoughts you have been outrunning start to catch up. memories appear without being forced. the body processes things the mind has been avoiding. bonus healing points if the walk is in nature and not a concrete jungle.
so walk. walk until your brain stops performing and starts actually thinking. let it wander. let it go wherever it goes without redirecting it back to your to-do list. and when you get home, or even on the walk itself, sit or slow down and let your mind go quiet. bring up a memory. a moment you know shaped you. a moment you felt small, or unseen, or like too much, or not enough…
and then instead of analyzing it or explaining it away like you always have, imagine yourself there. actually there. sitting next to that younger version of you. not as who you are now trying to fix something, but as someone who finally showed up to witness it. tell them what they needed to hear then. that it wasn't their fault. that they were enough. that it made sense to feel what they felt. and then give them a hug. actually feel it. let it land. let yourself cry if it comes. the emotional release is not the breakdown. it is the healing.
that child doesn't need a speech. they just need someone to finally show up. that's the whole thing.
and sometimes you will have to repeat the entire process with the same emotion because it doesn’t just magically disappear the first time… but each time you revisit the wound, it gets less and less intense
it’s like desensitizing yourself to your own trauma. and after some time, you'll be able to talk about your trauma in a way that doesn't feel like your insides are melting. and eventually, what used to break you open becomes just another part of your story.
energy vs frequency vs voltage?
energy + frequency + voltage ⇒ the electrical language of the body
everything is energy, but energy doesn't exist on its own. voltage and frequency are the backbone of what produces energy in the body
›voltage is what powers the cell
›frequency is how the cell communicates
›energy is what that whole system produces
or put another way...
voltage is the plug on your boombox
frequency is what station is playing on the radio
energy is how loud the music is
so energy is what you hear when the plug is in (voltage) and the station is clear (frequency). energy is the output of the whole system working together. you can have the right station and the volume turned up... but if the plug isn't in the wall or the station isn't tuned correctly, nothing works.
everyone in the healing space uses different terminology depending on their niche or area of expertise... but at the end of the day, everyone is referring to the same general things using different verbiage… energy, voltage, frequency...
ayurveda calls it prana or life force
chinese medicine calls it chi
religion calls it the holy spirit
education calls it 'the mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell'
spiritualists call it source or divine light
quantum physics calls it the zero point field
voltage
your body is an electrical system before it is anything else. every cell needs to maintain a membrane potential of around −70 millivolts so that an action potential can occur... which allows for the propagation of information through the body. organized electrical communication occurs between cells, tissues, fascia, organs, and the nervous system as a whole. when that voltage is maintained, the body communicates clearly and heals efficiently. when it drops (becomes less negative), everything downstream slowly degrades
voltage powers everything: nerve signals, muscle contractions, immune responses, hormone release, cellular repair...
the voltage across a cell membrane is determined by the concentration and movement of charged ions... primarily sodium, potassium, calcium, and magnesium. specific pumps help exchange these ions and consume ATP (energy) to do it.
so...
sodium (Na+) is important... found in salt. not table salt... real mineral-rich salt like baja gold, which contains dozens of trace minerals alongside sodium rather than just sodium chloride stripped of everything else
potassium (K+) is important... found in coconut water. harmless harvest is a good brand because it's raw and unpasteurized which preserves its natural electrolyte profile
calcium (Ca2+) is important... and one of the most bioavailable food sources is sardines with bones. the bones are soft, fully edible, and deliver calcium in a whole-food matrix alongside vitamin D and omega-3s, which are both required for absorption and utilization
magnesium (Mg2+) is very important... and pumpkin seeds alone aren't going to cut it.
magnesium is involved in over 300 enzymatic reactions in the body. it is a cofactor for the sodium-potassium pump itself... meaning without adequate magnesium, the pump that maintains your membrane voltage can't run properly. if you supplement anything, start here, but the form matters.
what you'll find in most drugstores is magnesium oxide... which has a bioavailability of around 4%. your body barely absorbs any of it, skip it.
the two forms worth knowing:
magnesium glycinate... magnesium bound to the amino acid glycine. well absorbed, gentle on digestion, replenishes muscle stores, stabilizes membranes, supports blood pressure. relaxes the body.
magnesium l-threonate... the only form that crosses the blood-brain barrier. directly addresses the anxiety and racing thoughts that keep people awake at night. relaxes the mind.
for most people, taking both forms together 30 minutes before bed helps with falling asleep
voltage by cell state:
healthy cells(−70 to −90 mV)
chronically inflamed cells(−50 to −30 mV)
cancer cells(−10 to −30 mV)
as you can see, voltage drops as cells get sicker... and the evidence increasingly suggests that chronic voltage loss is part of the cause, not just a side effect
things that support cell voltage:
›grounding and time in nature
›mineral-rich salt
›adequate electrolytes in the diet
›clean water
›sunlight
›restful sleep
›emotional coherence
›positive thought and intention
things that deplete cell voltage:
›chronic stress
›processed food
›mineral-depleted food
›environmental toxins
›heavy metals
›EMF overexposure
›dehydration
›negative emotional state
my favorite voltage researcher is dr. jerry tennant... his core thesis: the body heals when it can make new cells, and it can only make new cells when it has adequate voltage. when voltage drops below a certain threshold, the body cannot complete the repair cycle. chronic disease, by this model, is in part a voltage problem.
frequency
frequency is the music and the language of everything. technically it is the number of oscillations per second, expressed in hertz (hz). every organ, every tissue, every cell in your body oscillates at measurable electrical frequencies. and it doesn't stop there... every object in nature has a measurable frequency. animals, trees, pathogens, even a rock.
the earth itself pulses at 7.83 hz... this is called the schumann resonance, and it is the electromagnetic heartbeat of the planet
›a cardiologist reads your EKG... your heart's frequency
›a neurologist reads your EEG... your brain's frequency
your brain has distinct frequency bands depending on your state:
delta(0.5–4 hz) deep sleep, restoration, physical repair
theta(4–8 hz) meditative states, creativity, subconscious programming
alpha(8–12 hz) relaxed, calm, present but not stressed
beta(12–30 hz) active thinking, analytical, daily functioning
gamma(30–100 hz) high-level information processing, superconscious state
*high-beta (20–30 ish hz)... a dysregulated, stress-saturated version of beta. the brain frequency of chronic anxiety, racing thoughts, rumination, and overwhelm. in high-beta, the body is in a mild but constant state of fight or flight. cortisol is elevated, digestion is suppressed, cellular repair is deprioritized, immune function is dialed down. it is not a state the body was designed to live in permanently... and yet for most people in modern life, it's the default…
to shift out of high-beta: you want to practice things that deliberately slow the brain's oscillation rate → grounding in nature…breathwork…qigong…meditation…sound healing…time away from screens and noise
notice it's the same practices that keep circling back…
fun anesthesia fact: during certain surgeries we monitor the patient's brain frequency in real time to assess how anesthetized they are... a neuro tech places electrodes on the scalp and limbs to get raw EEG data and then does some magic math to give me a specific frequency that correlates to the depth of anesthesia. based on that number i know whether to increase, decrease, or keep my anesthetic the same
my favorite researcher in this space is dr. joe dispenza. his book becoming supernatural is one of the best bridges between the scientific and esoteric worlds. his team collects brain scans (QEEG and fMRI) from retreats around the world. admittedly, the data is all collected internally and nothing is published in a mainstream journal… but at this point, that might say more about the journals than the research itself as canada's own health minister recently made an official statement saying she can no longer trust american health institutions as reliable, given the degree of political influence...
dispenza's data shows that meditation doesn't just calm the mind... it restructures it. participants consistently shift from high-beta down into alpha and theta. and the most advanced meditators show sudden dramatic spikes into gamma... the frequency associated with transcendence and peak insight.
so, when you reshape your thoughts toward more gratitude and less pessimism, you can actually rewire your brain
not to say that toxic positivity is the answer... but an overall less reactive, calmer baseline.
more go with the flow.
more burnt toast theory.
more 'it's all going to be okay.'
energy
energy is the output of the whole system. it is the sum of your body's electrical, biochemical, and electromagnetic activity. and like any system, its output is only as good as its inputs. when your voltage is maintained and your frequency is coherent, your body produces energy efficiently...
your mitochondria generate ATP through a process that is fundamentally electrical... like tiny generators inside every cell. which means everything that depletes your voltage (toxins, mineral deficiencies, chronic stress, inflammation) is also depleting your energy output.
the fatigue, the brain fog, the slow recovery... are all measurable drops in your cells' ability to generate electrical potential and convert it into fuel
your body also emits energy. every cell produces low-level biophotonic emissions... measurable light generated as a byproduct of metabolic activity.
researcher fritz-albert popp found that
›healthy cells emit coherent, organized light
›diseased cells emit chaotic, weakened light
›the quality of light your body produces reflects the order or disorder of your internal electrical environment
so, all these ancient traditions that discuss prana, chi, life force, yin/yang energy… they are just different ways to optimize your voltage, frequency, and overall energy
